THE STRUGGLES OF A STUDENT.

 

Darkness all over, the wind whispers to me, the rustling of the leaves on the tall trees gives me chills and the heavy clouds continue to hide away the light that is supposed to be shining down on me. YES! I’m lost, lost in a faraway forest, the darkest forest that one could ever find on planet Earth. Right now, I’m all alone, no one to talk to and no one to make me feel safe. What can I say? It’s been this way for a while now and no one knows of this burden that I carry around with me.

Amid this dark and silent forest, I often see a glowing light coming from afar. Whenever I try to approach it, it just…. DISSAPPEARS. I sit there and wonder if I’ll ever get out of this forest and I end up thinking, “maybe this is my fate, this is where a person like me belongs”. I become so overwhelmed to the point whereby I just feel helpless and end up crying. I know, funny right? Why don’t I just keep trying to find a way out? Well…. I’ve tried *trust me* and NO! I haven’t given up, I just need a break for a while but don’t worry, I will not take a long time doing that. ‘

‘THE NOISE’, and no, it’s not coming from inside the forest. For long I’ve been trying to locate the origin of the noise but to no avail. This noise that I hear sounds very joyous and cheerful, like many people celebrating some sort of victory. I don’t want to make it seem as if I’m assuming anything but at times I feel as if the people on the other side have some sort of portal where they are able to see me, drowning in this dark, silent and scary forest. I ask myself, “Are they laughing at me?”, no, it can’t be, but my head keeps on going back to that thought and it makes me feel some type of way and it’s not a good feeling.

“WHY DON’T THEY HELP ME?! WHY DON’T THEY ASK ME WHETHER I’M DOING OKAY DOWN HERE? AM I REALLY INVISIBLE TO THEM?” All these questions continue to flood my mind. I feel so vulnerable, but I don’t want to feel that way.

I HOPE THAT I FIND A WAY OUT OF HERE. It may seem like everything is at a standstill and progress is out of reach, but this is just a chapter, not the whole story.